I’d like to think that I lead a healthy lifestyle, even though my dinner tonight was pizza and cheesy bread from Dominos. Am I to blame here? Bread and melted cheese is an orgasm in my mouth. I thought by eliminating these sugars from my life, I would achieve my ultimate life goal – no more medications!
I was fooled by the positive effects that the ketogenic
diet lifestyle had on me, which was mental clarity and a very, very stable mood.
Unlike the common phrase, “Keep calm and Keto on”, I “Kept calm and Hypomania’d on”. I stopped once I landed and hopped on my private hypomania jet in April. May I repeat… the ketogenic life did not cause my hypomania!!! However, I did learn that curbing my sweet tooth and eliminating carbs from the obvious culprits like bread… to the more hidden vegetables like carrots and peppers, would not shield me from my bipolar symptoms.
A truly desperate person will believe in all sorts of witchcraft to be rid of their main source of pain.
I ventured far enough to deprive myself of food-induced orgasms in order to eliminate the angst I feel when I take my medications every morning. I feel like a liar right now. I’ve preached time and time again about how important it is to accept your life with bipolar disorder. Yet I reject this part of my life every morning that I have to swallow my handful of pills. I forgot about how this pain has really affected me until I realized that the keto lifestyle would not eliminate my dependence on these tiny pills.
I came to this realization two months ago and I’m still sorely disappointed and saddened by the news that eating and breathing keto would help me prevent my bipolar symptoms.
It’s easy to say that we can do anything and be just like everyone else, but that statement alone feels so defensive. We don’t have to prove anything at all because this is it – this is life with bipolar disorder. It’s not a death sentence, but you know, it could be better too. I can’t help but know that my own functional life masks the fact that I’m bipolar, and when everything is rainbows and unicorns, it’s all good in the hood.
But man, when shit hits the fan, that’s when the fear of myself sets in.
All bets are off and the functional part of me just has to work 100 times harder than someone who isn’t bipolar because I’m not like everyone else and never will be. My mood will continue to change with the seasons, because winter skies will be covered with clouds of depression and spring will always bloom with weeks of hypomania. All I can do is to see the signs and try my best to manage it when it happens. For example, I know that every winter I’m on high alert when I start sleeping too much or I’ll give an extra boost in my medication cocktail so that I can keep everything in check. Or in the springtime, I’ll warn everyone to watch me closely when I start making decisions like moving across the country to Australia.
If slimming your waistline is your goal, give the ketogenic diet a try because there are many other benefits that come along with it.
But if you’re deciding to try the ketogenic diet because you think it’ll help you curb the perks of being bipolar, think again (sense the sarcasm there?) I’d encourage you to try it and really commit to it for a couple months if you’re curious or desparate though! I surely gave it a solid 4 months, but still came out pretty empty handed, but I’m sure it has worked for other people.