Alternative mindfulness

I learned this formula when I began my mindfulness journey –> mindfulness equals meditation, which is why I tried to be a zen yogi at first. I immediately enforced this rule when I was hospitalized a few years ago. I’d lay out a towel on the floor and meditate with my legs crossed for 20…

Confessions of a functional bipolar chick

I’m writing this after a long 12 hour shift with snot all over my face and completely naked because clothes make me feel like I should just crawl out of my skin. This is the truth about living with bipolar disorder a little too… functionally? I trick myself into thinking none of the depressed, anxious,…

Is Dialectical Behavioural Therapy helpful or nah?

I have a very, very, very philosophical theory about recovering and getting better – it starts with “I’ll get better” followed by “then I’ll try therapy.” A little contradictory, no? You don’t start biking without a helmet, bump your head, and say, “I’ll consider wearing a helmet.” You very well will wear a damn helmet…

Rapid cycling: The devil you know

Rapid cycling – the quick turnover of depression, anxiety, and hypomania – is the familiar devil that I know and live with. We all have our worst nightmares within us… our flaws and all. But this devil is one that I could happily live without. I try my best to embrace it but it’s gnawing…

I’m “crazy” and psychotic

Me, and the 1 in 5 individuals living with a mental health disorder, are “crazy”. But how crazy are we really? If you try to dissect that statistic to find out how many people live with bipolar disorder, you’ll sadly find an inconsistent range of numbers and percentages. This means that… You don’t have to…

Holiday hibernation

Christmas is coming in full speed and there is nothing better than transforming into a bipolar bear and hibernating from the whole world. This winter holiday is a great excuse to spend quality time with family and friends but sometimes it’s just way too much stimulation. If this is you, take a deep breath and…

Step 3 to Conquer SAD This Winter: Therapy

Therapy comes in many forms – Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT), Dialectical Behavioural Therapy (DBT), mindfulness, pet therapy, sex therapy, and so on. Oh c’mon… (safe and responsible) sex is important! But the traditional and most effective therapy to conquer Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) would be CBT, DBT, and mindfulness. Warning: this is a long blog…

Step 2 to Conquer SAD This Winter: Routine

It’s time to spring out of bed – Say hello to routine and bye bye winter blues! Um… as if. Bad days come and go with the cold gloomy weather but the winter blues buries you into the snow until spring comes to melt it all. It disables you from being able to do all…

Step 1 to Conquer SAD This Winter: Sleep

November is in full swing and it’s time to start planning for SAD, aka Seasonal Affective Disorder, aka winter blues, aka winter sucks. I tried to tackle the cold gloomy days last year by using different DBT skills and techniques but it still left me hanging by a thread. After months of having mixed episodes…

The “Complain” Train

Misery loves company so it’s easy to be caught up in a cyclone of negativity, especially on social media. This sparked my attention while I was on Reddit – someone asked other users to share their positive happy endings living with a mental health illness in the Bipolar Disorder group. It became crystal clear how…

Mental freedom

There’s a constant buzzing in my head that doesn’t go away. It’s not the steady buzz from cute furry bumble bees, it’s not white noise, and it’s not the usual voices I hear. They’re just conversations between people and myself. For example, I’ll walk by someone with nice shoes and wonder to myself where she…

The best ships are bipolar friendships!

Staying friends with someone who lives with bipolar disorder is like running a marathon. You can’t win the race by trying to dash to the finish line. It’s a mental game that requires equal parts of love, compassion, and patience. And maybe this sounds cruel, but it’s important to be honest with yourself and really…