Mirror mirror on the wall

I stared into the steel rails and wooden grills of our Toronto subway tracks on my way home the other night. I thought, “These old subway tracks have so much meaning; it holds such substance from me, to you.” Meaning also shifts as your life changes. In the recent 5 or 6 years, these tracks…

Self care & love

I hope your eyes and minds have travelled with me through SAD month this October. I hope you remember to be gentle with yourself with a little self care as the longer days and winter storms quickly approaching. Self care extends beyond doing things like reading, exercising, and going for massages though. If not, you can always click to…

Accessing therapy

Can I hear an AMEN if you’ve ever had the most difficult time trying to find a specialist, then book an appointment with them? I love being Canadian and Medicare is one of the first reasons why, but the system can be cruel. I’ve come across a lot of people who don’t even know where…

My dirty little secrets

SAD is not fun but it’s manageable with the the right tools. I’ll be sharing some of my tried and true secrets that I use to kick your depression and anxiety to the curb. The secret is to help yourself first because your family and friends can’t always be around to pull you up. One word: Try….

My Home

I’m blessed. I’m blessed by all the love and support from my family, my friends, my husband and my dog. I’m not trying to make an academy award speech but I’m grateful for them because I wouldn’t be here, alive, and healthy today without each of my gems.I learned that I didn’t have to fight alone….

Part 2: A will to live

I revisited a private and intimate passage from my journal last week – moments before I attempted suicide two years ago. This week, I’ll be continuing this discussion on the broad topic of having a will to live and what it means. I asked a number of questions last week because I wanted us to…

Part 1: A will to live

The fine line between living and dying is your will to live; only you and you alone. Anais Nin summed it up best with this line: You cannot save people. You can only love them. I believe that staying alive is primarily based on your will to live. Of course there are physiological components that will hold you back but…

Unplugging the triggers

In the world of mental health, you hear the word trigger a lot. Specifically, “What’s triggering you?” Triggers are the little dancing devils that control depression, anxiety and all sorts of feelings. Triggers can be anything and everything. It can be a thought, a person, place, or thing. They tug on your heartstrings and provide…

Managing expectations

Here are the perfect ingredients for a bipolar recipe: Depression keeps you sad because you’re stuck in the past. Anxiety begs you constantly to worry about the future. And baby, mania is just a euphoric dreamland where you don’t sleep. Managing expectations of yourself and of others doesn’t eliminate any of these symptoms but at…

Having faith & grace

Losing hope is so easy. I’ve spent so much of my life listening to myself and the friends in my head beating me down. They tell me that the depression and anxiety would never end, and all my efforts were simply worthless. Yet those thoughts hold so much truth; reality has justified and cemented those…

So they said I didn’t look bipolar

Welcome to Light Project Stories. Chasing Yarn had a good run but it’s time for a new adventure. This is a voice for you – for my survivors and strong souls who continue to persevere and manage their own mental health every day. This is for the families and the friends who want to find…