Better at being Bipolar

Much like life right now, I’m writing to you guys without a “topic” to discuss, or any direction for that matter. I’m writing just because. And I’m realizing that maybe the most courageous act I’m accomplishing right now is simply letting go. I’ve been walking through life without any real intent or destination because I’m…

A Prisoner to Pills

“Things get better.” and they do… they just never go away though, at least not without a price. You can’t run from who you are, but you can hope that the shit storm you’re in “gets better” so it’s an easier pill to swallow. As I’ve slowly recovered from my most recent suicide attempt four…

Ketogenic lifestyle & Bipolar disorder

I’d like to think that I lead a healthy lifestyle, even though my dinner tonight was pizza and cheesy bread from Dominos. Am I to blame here? Bread and melted cheese is an orgasm in my mouth. I thought by eliminating these sugars from my life, I would achieve my ultimate life goal – no…

Pregnancy dilemma: Bipolar with babies?

In about a month from now, I’ll be 2 years into married life and I’ve successfully dodged a lot of baby questions. I’m starting to pass that honeymoon phase though so those questions are starting to trickle in. Before I know it, they’ll be watching that certain “special lower abdomen” bump every time I refuse…

What is rapid cycling?

I realized this morning, after 5 hours of sleep, that I talk about rapid cycling but I never explain what it really is. To truly understand what rapid cycling is means that you have to know someone who has been through it. And well… maybe I’m the only person you know. But if I’m not…

Love & Loss

If you’ve followed me on Instagram, you’ll know that my grandmother passed away a month ago. Everyday I think about her – we were close… really close. We shared a room and bed together for almost 12 years of my life until I got a room of my own. Let’s just say I have a…

Dear family & friends: How can you be supportive?

I’ve received a lot of questions on how to help their bipolar/depressed/anxious family member or friend cope, and today is the day to let it all out! Last week I mentioned that rapid cycling season is quickly approaching (or has started already) so there’s no better time than to practice and sharpen those skills. I…

Breaking free from rapid cycling

Tis the season to spring forward and welcome new mood changes and rapid cycling. I know that I cycle through depression, anxiety and hypomania when the weather drastically changes, which is usually around March to April and again August to October depending on the year. Another one usually creeps up around June too. Rapid cycling…

I’m “crazy” and psychotic

Me, and the 1 in 5 individuals living with a mental health disorder, are “crazy”. But how crazy are we really? If you try to dissect that statistic to find out how many people live with bipolar disorder, you’ll sadly find an inconsistent range of numbers and percentages. This means that… You don’t have to…

Step 3 to Conquer SAD This Winter: Therapy

Therapy comes in many forms – Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT), Dialectical Behavioural Therapy (DBT), mindfulness, pet therapy, sex therapy, and so on. Oh c’mon… (safe and responsible) sex is important! But the traditional and most effective therapy to conquer Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) would be CBT, DBT, and mindfulness. Warning: this is a long blog…

Step 2 to Conquer SAD This Winter: Routine

It’s time to spring out of bed – Say hello to routine and bye bye winter blues! Um… as if. Bad days come and go with the cold gloomy weather but the winter blues buries you into the snow until spring comes to melt it all. It disables you from being able to do all…

The best ships are bipolar friendships!

Staying friends with someone who lives with bipolar disorder is like running a marathon. You can’t win the race by trying to dash to the finish line. It’s a mental game that requires equal parts of love, compassion, and patience. And maybe this sounds cruel, but it’s important to be honest with yourself and really…